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Omg I'm so tired!!! My body hurts D:.
Today at lunch I didn't feel like sitting with EdgarKat. Typing their names separated makes no sense since they're never NOT together. I'm the third wheel with 2 of my best friends. WTF is that?! Damn. Today I just didn't want it. Didn't wanna deal with it at all. Its bullshit. I'm tired of it already. I cant help but get annoyed. And I have nothing to talk to with Edgar about. Its so UGH. *sigh* there's always a problem. But today I sat with Jossy and laughed a lot and actually felt like someone appreciated me being there. So I'm happy. I was annoyed at her talking about DBSK all the time. But now its just casual talk. I still like them but I'm glad that we're talking about other things too. Vera is so ghetto LOL toss your salad XD. SO funny! Um yeah today nothing happened. Just me being annoyed at Edgar and Glademin...Oh no I mean EdgarKat. -____-

Man. This vacation was totally bogus. I was home the whole time. Tomorrow Anabelle is going to come. I hope she actually comes. But right now...at this moment..Im pretty happy with life. Everyone in my family is healthy and alive. I have awesome friends and Even though Im not an A+ student Im average lol. Im happy. I cant complain. I kinda wanna go to school. I miss the usual faces that I see. Not all. But some. Like Edgar, Vera, Kitty, Jossy, Ream, Younhee, Seohye. All those people. My budds :D. I was playing guitar hero for like an hour. Singing. Now my throat hurts. Lol. Umm. Im kinda sleepy..but when arent I? I was laughing the other day. About how me and my sister look at the butts of the guys we like. Hahaha. Thats so funny to me. I was asking Edgar what stuff he likes..If we were quizzed about each other in a game show. We'd LOSE! Well my mom wants me to be with her....Ill write later haha BYEE~!

Ah the vacation is going by so quickly! My mom just told me that I'm going to take the permit test on Wednesday. Im scared. I didn't really study too much. I will tomorrow. I gotta get started on homework too. Ugh I hate my school. They give so much crap. Wtf?! Its a damn vacation. I hate them! I stayed home again today. I don't think I'm gonna make plans with anyone. I consider a vacation from school a vacation from people. My phone has been off for like 3 days already. I bet people are wondering why I haven't responded to any texts. No one calls lol they know better. I hate talking on the phone. HAAHAHA! I was laughing at this picture that I saw...It was so retarded I couldn't help but laugh! Hahah omg just thinking about it. I HATE my neighbors. They make so much noise at like 12:00am. The whole night! My mom and my sister and I had to sleep in the living room because they were having a "family reunion". Wtf. Too much noise. Mami's eyes are better today. I have to put eye drops every hour. Aish. What else? Oh yeah! Boys before flowers..this korean drama. Is soo addicting. I love it so much. I've tried not to watch it because once I start I cant stop. So its been 2 days..I'm fine. but once I sit down to watch it..I wont get up for a while lol. Well yeah thats my daily update. Nothing really going on. Ciao~

Well the beginning of vacation wasn't so great. My mom kept making me clean. Friday was the worst. I had to mop and everything. But, it was because she was going to get operated today. For her eyes. I was so excited for her! I went to the doctors with her and Anabelle. There was a little TV showing us what was going on. Directly into her eye. It was insane. The doctor flooded her eyes with eye drops and put this thing on her eyes so they wouldn't close. Aw man that looked like it hurt a lot. Now we're home and shes in a lot of pain. I feel so bad for her. It must hurt like hell. >_> this keyboard is so loud. well anyway. I laugh at myself for this. Sung has less pimples. And he's looking waaaay better. Aish. I don't like him like that anymore. But eye candy at school wont hurt. Despite the fact that Younhee is always reminding me of how UGLY and how GROSS and what a LOSER he is. SO I have no chance to think anything good of him. She stopped saying that he's my boyfriend...FINALLY! So yeah. I haven't been speaking to Joselyn too much lately. She has tonnnns of livejournal friends so I guess that makes her happy. I was so pissed at Edgar on Wednesday and for the week actually. He's ALWAYSSS with Glademin. He has no other friends. When you see him you see her. And when you see her you see him. Whats the deal? I just get upset and dont want to talk to either of them. Go get married already -_-. On Wednesday when I wasn't talking to Edgar...she wasnt talking to me either. But when I went to the bathroom and she saw me..she came and spoke to me right away. I wasn't planning on speaking to her. But I didn't want to be rude. I had to hold the door for her in the bathroom too. Aish. I got mad because she only spoke to me when Edgar wasn't around. Why didn't she speak to me when he was there? That makes me think that she doesn't want him seeing her talking to me. idk. Its just uncool that she did that. I was so happy that Wednesday was the last day because I would've gone insane. Supposedly, Edgar wasn't mad at me. He "spidey sensed" that I was mad at him so he didn't talk to me. And to this day he doesn't know why I was mad at him. I don't want to tell him but I do at the same time. Hes gonna think Im just jealous. And if I am. Whats wrong with that? If my friend is being HOGGED by one person and that person and him are just too close to stand it what can I do? I cant compete with that. Its so ridiculous sometimes actually...most of the time. Whatever happened to if you love someone just be with them? My mom is right about teenagers here....They want to make a big drama for everything. Its stupid! Get over yourselves. At least Vera is acting normal. She always is lol. Well...Yeah. Bye~

PS- I swear my cat peed somewhere in the basement. Somewhere NOT in her litter box. It reeks! i just cleaned it yesterday T_T damn that cat

three words to describe my day... SLEEPY ANNOYING AND ALITTLE FUNNY.

People just get weirder and weirder O.o

Nooo Sundays are the worst because I have school the next day. *sobs* whyyyy?! I really hope this week is better then the last. I was just so irritated for no reason. I wanted to be left alone. I wanted to go home as soon as I got to school. I didnt want to see anyone. Idk why I was like that. It sucks and I really hope my mood changes because THIS SUCKS~! Uh Oh man *jizz* I saw the hottest pic of jaejoong. I jizzed like 30 times. But the sad thing is that I don't like DBSK that much anymore. They're hot and have some cool songs but thats about it. I mean I'm totally happy that Jossy gave me those posters that admire everyday lol but Ive talked about them so much with her that idk its like i talked my tongue out about them. I just listen to joselyn rave about them most of the time. And nod. lol I feel bad for doing that sometimes but last week I just wasn't in the mood for anything. All I can see is how school goes along tomorrow. Ugh but I have gym. *Sobs again* I hate changing and then taking the train. *yawns* Man I read that entry Joss wrote. What was up with that. Its like 4 days old? But it looks pretty serious. Ahhh I spoke to Edgar. We havent talked in a long time. I'm always with joselyn and hes always with Kat. *rolls eyes* Its stupid cause we're ALL friends. I got ticked at that too. With him its all KAT KAT KAT KAT KAT KAT KAT GLADEMIN KAT. But Ill deal. Especially with how he's feeling. But the things that happen with them are so cute. But she makes everything so damn complicated for no reason. And I hate that in someone. Like seriously. Drama is for TV DAMMIT! Anyways. I don't think there's anymore to write about. I just blab on about how annoyed I am. But today has been a very chill day. Yesterday I went to my aunts house and spoke with Anabelle a lot. Shes my favorite cousin. Shes so cool. *sigh* school tomorrow. Lets see how it goes *drags feet*


I wish I could do that.

okay. Another day another argument between Vera and Joselyn. Its soooo AHH! *pulls out hair* Theyre both my best friends. And they just wont stop going at each other. Vera says something, joselyn says something mean against it and vera tells her to shut up and then joselyn gets mad. And I feel like Im in between all of this. And today was just too much. I spoke to both of them about it. I got so mad. Joselyn is telling me edgar told her the same DAMN thing. Like wtf. Im just telling you whats up and youre getting mad at me. Thats not going to happen. Im pissed as it is and Im not gonna let this keep happening again. Its so ANNOYING! Im not picking sides but geez. Arg im just so *huffs*. Umm today I went to Japanese club? And this chick Ashley was talking about Sung and how she likes him. I kept my cool..But I was like W-T-F?!?! No way! And for some reason I didn't like it one very much. But whatever. Its whatever. Im so sleepy. We're going to Korea town next week so that'll be cool. I hope we go. And that it doesn't rain or anything. Overall today was an average day. School, Listening to bickering, Hearing Edgar yell, Laughing with Joselyn and Younhee, being bored in math. Danny aka Crimson Chin is such a douche bag. The other day he called me in english and was like "I hate you Mara" and I said was "OK" I didnt care...who the hell is he? Nobody. But why would he bother calling me to tell me that? What a retard. And today he tried to talk to me and I brushed him off. I used to talk to him but now its like...Dude..Leave me alone. I dont wanna talk to you. I just remembered. Johnathan Fuerte. I havent seen him in like 4 days. I got alittle worried thinking he did something stupid. Even though I dont talk to him anymore I get scared when I dont see him. Knowing how he is...he might kill himself. Idk I hope he never gets that emotional. But I got mad the other day. He has this "online girlfriend" and he like started talking to her and replaced me on his myspace and everything. Im not supposed to care right? Too bad I did. Cause we were like close friends for such a long time...since 9th grade. I remember when we first started talking online. I gave him a list of songs that I wanted him to download for me haha. Aww those were the normal days. Then he started liking me and everything went bad. *Sigh* God help that guy.

Ahh~ today school was pretty normal. Um Joselyn was pretty down after chemistry. Because Younhee and I were being mean to her. That's kinda ironic. On the count that shes so mean to a lot of people for no reason...Taste of your own medicine really does suck. Its only a matter of time when I get a taste of my own medicine...That will suck..But it happens to everyone. Today in gym Edgar was going freaking crazy. We were playing volleyball and he kept yelling! Idk wtf was wrong with him today but DAMN. I was just like O_O! Something must have happened. He says he was mad cause he failed 2 tests but I think something else is going on. No one gets that PISSED over failed tests. He was yelling at Joselyn a lot too. She was sad already so that made her feel worse. I couldn't help but laugh because every time edgar yells its FRIKIN HILARIOUS so yeah. haha. but yeah. Poor friends :( Issues galore. idk *sigh*. I get sad when I know something is wrong with one of them but they never come and talk to me about it. Thinking that I'm gonna judge them so quickly or be MEAN AND BITTER. That's what everyone expects from me. It gets me mad sometimes. WTF I'M HUMAN! But fine...if they don't wanna talk to me about it then whatever. Ill just stay oblivious to everything going on and just laugh it off. That's my job anyway. Make people laugh.

Today I took the bus and the train with Samantha. Who knew she lived so close to me? I didnt :o well now I do. She just lives two stops away lol. We didn't stop talking not once. It was cool.

Uh...Watchmen was a cool movie. Um yeah. Im sleepy. School sucks. Pimple boy sucks too. Younhee wont let me live it down that I liked him. Damn that. Another day, another dollar. (I didnt really get a dollar...instead i spent some on edgar and kitty's ringpops and pushpops XD)

Well since Im already on here looking at Jaejoong and Junsu i might as well write some. Umm today was a normally boring day. I'm just going to school and coming back home really. I don't have any classes with who shall not be named. So that toootally helped me get over him. Yet I found myself daydreaming about all the stupid little things that happened between us. And when I came back from the day dream I would be so dizzy 0/////0 Idk why. But it happened the most yesterday. *sigh* Im not depressed about it or anything..its just that why was I dizzy whenever I came back from those stupid memories? That has never happened with any other daydream. I dont want to mention it to my friends..as far as they know he's not in my mind anymore..I'd rather not bring it up. It'll go away with time thankfully. Umm I got annoyed yesterday and alittle today. Joselyn and Vera are always bickering when they're together. I hate it so much. Idk why they pick on each other. Wtf. Always. Never getting along! I hate it so much. TOday in italian cintia and joselyn were like picking on her. Idk. I wanted to defend her but I didnt wanna make it more serious than it was. Honestly, they all need to shut up and get along. I dont really talk about my feelings much..but not today Im letting it out. DBSK DBSK DBSK. Is all I hear from Joselyn. Dont get me wrong. I love talking about their sexiness but aish it can get overbearing. We used to talk about other stuff and laugh about other stuff. But everything revolves around those 4 letters. I hope that when Joselyn reads this she doesnt feel bad. I really don't. But Now i feel bad because I never give her anything in return when she's always giving me stuff. I'm glad I share the obsession of DBSK with her...Shes just a bigger fan. I'll deal. I dont mind that much. Maybe ive just been really tired this week. Thats the only complaint I have about Jossy. Nothing else shes too cool anyway. Ummm...I lost weight ^_^ I was 143 and now Im 134..that makes me happy woo! Kat keeps asking me whether I think the relationship with her and Edgar is weird. THats weird. What the hell does it matter what I think?! They're so close its scary. Idk cant I just think that!? sheesh -___- and I got ticked off cause Julian is always making smart ass comments. Acting like hes soooooo much smarter than everyone that's so stupid. I dont think I have anything else to write about. Its been a weird END OF THE WEEK for me. I dont mean to hurt feelings Sometimes im just not a people person >_<

Oh i forgot. Sometimes I want to punch nathalie in the face. SHE GETS SO GOD DAMN ANNOYING WITH HER DAMN ATTITUDE AND HER FRIKIN UGGGH! SHES SO PICKY AND SELFISH SOMETIMES. IM SURPRISED I HAVENT PUNCHED HER YET! -___-

I haven't written here in a while. I tend to do so every month lol. I forget about it. But the community I joined with pictures of Jaejoong make me happy...So I logged on. Yeah his hotness makes me very very very happy. I just saw the video that joselyn sent me its DBSK's new music video. Ahh so hot *drools*

On to something else. What do you think it will be about? I hate the guy. I don't even want to mention his name. He thinks he plays with me when he says something stupid but it actually bothers me. I regret sitting in his table for math. He is so stupid and such a jerk. But the days before he was being nice to me and subtly flirting with me. Idk what happened to him today. Tomorrow is a dress down...I used to be excited about that so I could look cute for him. but I gave up on that. Because I bet he neeeverrrr noticed. He is so UGH to me. I felt so bad today after math. I was on the verge of crying. I'm surprised I didn't. I just didn't want to be red and stuff. I didn't want him to see me red like that. I wonder if he knew that it made me feel bad? I bet he didn't he is so damn clueless. Stupid stupid stupid stupid! Ugh I get so upset with this. Yet every morning I wish that something cute will happen with him. *sigh* Its hopeless. I don't like him as much as I used to. Thats something good. But I'm scared that it'll go back to that. I'm going to try to ignore him. I have to. For my own good :/

Jossy cried I think two days ago. God I felt so bad. I almost cried myself. She deserves a good guy. Stupid angel for hurting her. I wanna punch his robotic self. Ugh! Why cant he just tell her that he likes her. I have a feeling he does anyway. Strong feeling.

Damn this is a long blog. As you can see nothing really happens with me. Just the stupid shit with Sung and me being with my friends. I don't have much drama. *Sigh* life is simple. Yet I feel so sad and bad sometimes. I hate it. I laugh my troubles away in school. Oh the only teen problem I have is being self conscious. That makes me feel bad most of the time too. But what can I do. Nothing. Thats my story for now.

Well...Nothing with the dude. Sorry to disappoint. I'm taking a brake from it sometimes. Im just in my own imagination world. The guy is shy and confusing. I dont know what to do anymore >_>

On to other things. This story me and Joselyn are writing is soooo awesome. I mean its so good lol. Her and Angel. And me with the dude (-_-) yepppp.

Theres another thing going on. I really dislike my cousin heily almost hate. Shes always starting problems trying to make my life a living hell. Its sad to say that I almost hate a family member. But she deserves every ounce of that hate. Shes been making my life miserable ever since we were kids. I cant wait to grow up. Then Ill be able to decide whether I ever see her or not. If she doesnt change Im definately going to erase her from my life. That's a guarantee. That evil bastard!

Umm..Yeah Woo..Very random I know more about sung couldve been written. But nothing really happens. Its stupid with that guy. Im emo sometimes then again I have my idc attitude..which is rare in this case. Idk why I like him so much. But its there :/

Well today was dress down (hooray) and I tried my best to look nice. Everyone said I did so that gave me hope that sung would think that too. When I saw him come in the school, my mind went blank. He looked so hot that my chest started hurting and my cheeks felt like they were going to explode into fireworks. He had on a hat. and omg I don't think I can describe it. So thinking that my pants were red enough to get Sungs attention was my strategy... I was dead wrong. He didn't even talk to me today. I walked around him and all of that. But nothing. He'd rather play with the whore PAOLA right in my face rather than talk to me. And after chemistry Paola was gonna go another way and He said "noo" and pulled her bag. Ugh! That douche bag -_-. I was mad most of the time. In English I even bit my nails to the point where they hurt. Then school ended. And I know it sounds funny when I saw it like this. But he like...power walked from me. I think he power walked because running would make him look stupid. But if it wasn't for him looking stupid he would've definitely ran away. After I got on the bus I felt like crap. I didn't want to cry but I just kept wondering wtf went wrong. I just don't know with that guy anymore. I need the power to read minds. Seriously.

But maybe one thing came out good today. All of my friends said that he was checking me out. I wish I had eyes in the back of my head so I can see it for myself. Then I'd believe it.

Ahh things with Sung aka "Korean guy" lol. I cant believe how things are going now. I mean we are even walking to class together its too unreal. And on Friday he was telling me to go with him like take the bus together. It was too perfect. But I had to wait for my sister. which totally killed the moment. we didn't end up taking the bus just me and him. But me, him and some friends. That made it so much easier because I don't think I would've made it if I was alone. But I'm gonna look totally sexy-fied on Monday in hopes of him wanting to take the bus with me again. Omg He had on the hottest sweater on Friday. I just stared when he was talking to me. It was so tight and fit him perfectly. God I hope he wears it on Thursday. *wipes sweat off forehead* He's SO HOT.

Lets get off the topic I talk almost too much about XD. I got closer to Glademin and Joselyn this year. What a relief! Being with the same people can get a little tiring. Especially if they complain about how bad their lives are. GET OVER IT! So yeah. I wanna smack angel because he's being a DUCHE to poor Jossy. She really likes the guy and he would totally stare at her and never talk to her. I insist that he likes her. But she disagrees. Glademin has the definition of a PERFECT RELATIONSHIP. *sigh* We all want that.

Hmmm what else is going on?? Things with my family are great. My grandma should be coming home soon from DR. I miss her *cries* School isn't really awesome besides my friends and sung. But nothing else. Life is going good ^_^

I wuv Reamo...

and edgar too <333

Bah..So about the korean kid. I asked him if he liked me online and that AIR HEAD never replied! Grr that got me mad and made me want to give up. But whatever the year is finishing so Im going to let that go. So today we had dress down and it was ironic the him and I were wearing the same color. Weeeird. And then like we got on the same bus and sorta kinda walked to school together. But Heily was there and so was HIS friend. Edgar told me he was looking at me during lunch so Edgar grilled him...like always and then I laughed and the guy saw me :D

On other terms..there is drama in school cause of Katherine and Bianca and Jesus...but the storm has yet to come because kathy hasent even come back to the school itself. Cant wait till next year! Umm anything else? My friend joselyn is writing a SUPER AWESOME STORY but I have to attack her so she could keep on writing -_-. Today I took the bus with her and amanda and dominique...I dont think amanda likes me =[...Well that sucks but life must go on...YAY only like 2 weeks left of school *cheers*

Ugh for the past weeks I noticed that I actually had feelings for someone...okay uhm start from the beginning...edgar doesn't want me to have a boyfriend..he says I'm "pure" and "clean" lol very weird. So there's this korean from my school I thought was hot so I bothered edgar about it and whatever. Then like last week I think that I actually like this guy. He's so hot in my eyes so why not give it a chance? Well -_- that guy is like sooo slow there is nothing he will do to actually show that I'm getting somewhere! Like ugh what is a girl to do. This friggin sux!

Well today was a normally annoying day. I went to school and for some reason I decided to wear a skirt. So everyone was like "omg" so whatever.now I'm at home and my edgar is "broken down" and so is ream. Ream is complaining that he has to wear a mask around us because we don't "accept" him. I'm getting tired of him always being so emo about all the stupidest things. God I feel like he needs real help...not just advice from his friends. And all the things going on in his family...now I take everything back...he goes through a lot and its sad.now one thing that has been bothering me is that idiot that is called mike. I CAN'T STAND HIM!!!!! He is so damn annoying I don't understand how anyone can stand him. He's just ugh I hate him...A LOT!